“[Suzi] Gablik speaks of the previous paradigm of the Enlightenment period and what it has meant to artists: ‘Individualism, freedom and self-expression are the great modernist buzz words.’ The notion that art could serve collective cultural needs rather than a personal quest for self-expression seems almost ‘presumptuous’ in that worldview. Yet this assumption lies at the base of a paradigm shift in art, a shift ‘from objects to relationships.’ Gablik challenges her coworkers not to settle for abstract theorizing in making this paradigm shift. She personalizes and therefore grounds the transformations that must be undergone when she insists that ‘the way to prepare the ground for a new paradigm shift is to make changes in one’s own life.’ Spirituality is about praxis, she is saying, not just theory.”
Matthew Fox, The Reinvention of Work
I am not important to anyone I know of inside the beltway in D.C.
I am not your sister’s favorite secret lover.
I am not a thirty something millionaire defense contractor careening through jammed traffic in a red Italian sports car in Houston.
I am not a power Mensa video gamer in camouflaged shorts with expensive weed in my thigh pocket.
I am not one of Kalle Lassen’s lunch buddies.
I am not readily confused with Asian Republican golf pros in crisp green Lacoste shirts.
I am not the owner of a Bombardier, Gulfstream or Hawker.
I am not an MIT custodian skulking around late night lab halls.
I am not omniscient or wildly intuitive on most Mondays or Fridays.
I am not Laurie Anderson’s current boyfriend.
I am not a fan of most daytime TV game show contestant’s snack habits.
I am not a licensed massage therapist in fitted pastel spandex.
I am not a pet Red Tail hawk raging loose in a rich kid’s tree house.
I am not Dick Chaney’s confessor (and God help the woman who is).
I am not (nor ever was) an extra for the making of any of the Planet of the Apes films.
I am not Peter Bogdonovich’s primary psychoanalyst.
I am not Woody Allen’s mother’s scapegoat bridge partner.
I am not a first line victim of state sponsored European pharmaceutical industrial espionage.
I am not as bold as I was when I had longer and fuller and better hair.
I am not a talented speller like my father.
I am not a top notch political strategist/ painter/ art star living in the Hamptons with illegal house servants bringing me exotic breakfasts in bed.
I could have ventured high
to paint huge pictures
hand ground Dutch oils
and rare sables
Revealing the world on Belgian Linen
I could have been the toast of luminaries
Social giants whisked to and fro
Under impenetrable black glass and lacquer
Bulletproof invisible and always on the move
Descending upon parties here and there
Celebrating their blue chip acquisitions
works I might not remember making
But there would be ample medication
For those mornings
When dark thoughts intruded
And I would wear hand cut black French suits and shirts
To paint in
And drink in
A flick of titanium on the lapel
Like Basquiat or Baselitz
Careening beyond self
Catastrophic, Sexy
Ambiguous and grave
Like priests and assassins
I could have ventured high
To make a mark
To sound the alarm
(the Corporates have stolen the planet)
Without trimming habits
To scream out from rooftops
and garden parties
svelte glamored strangers
leering and gleaming
On the designer plank
Of my 5th Avenue coop
Perched above Manhattan
dark sequined gargoyles
only the privileged were guested
And I’d drink with Anselm in his palace factory
In Southern France
rare Absinthe and Thai Smoke
And we’d surely slur congratulations
And turn celebrities from the gatehouse
To hold up together
Supreme and isolate
And with eventual contrition
I'd telephone Ms. Gablik sobbing
begging her prayers and guidance
And email Roshi Joan
to beg hers too
That it might not be too late
For me
To make art that matters